54 in 53

Ha, up another pound people.
No surprise - I ate like a trooper when I got home, and I haven't been eaten too well so far today, but I'm OK. I'm just going to change tatics. More later/tomorrow. I just can't hack so much processed meats. So I'm revisiting GL.

53 in 54

I've gone up a pound, which is no real surprise, is it?
So, this morning, I started afresh, but very little. So by the time lunch rolled around, I was too hungry to function, so I got a lasagne, which, while off-plan, is still better than bread. At least there was meat and cheese in it.

Today is the end of week 1. I lost a total of 8 pounds. I hope I don't gain it all back by the weekend, but at this rate, I just might.

Someone, I think it might have been Him, said because my attention span is so goldfishesque I should do one week of a diet and keep switching. I don't know what that would do to the metabolism, but it sounds like a good idea. I don't know if I can face the prospect of more meat and cheese. I'm so over it.

If I had the money, I would just get some fucking lipo and get off this treadmill once and for all.

Oh - last night this Half Ton Hospital programme was on. I could totally see myself being there, if I don't get my jaws wired, STAT.

Off the wagon, caught in its wheels.

The evening was blur of chocolate cookies, digestives and customised pizza...

Off the wagon

I cheated.
A chocolate brownie square and a chocolate caramel shortbread thing.
I don't even really like chocolate, so what the hell is that about?
I'm going to do my best to not let it sprial into a massive binge, but is going to be v. difficult.
Shit is (potentially) about to hit the fan at work, so its going to be hard.
Hopefully the carbs will kick start the weight loss again. So much for 50 in 54!

52 in 55

Seriously, wtf? Still no change this morning. He told me to pipe down - it hasn't been a full week yet, and its still 9lbs down, and I'm still three days ahead of myself. He is right. I need to calm it. Methinks its the Chocolate Digestive Effect. I thought I got get away with a couple, but obviously not.

Oh and last night I went all over London looking for the Shiritake noodles. Could I find them? Could I bollocks.

15%

To console myself over this morning's disapointing news, I figured out that I'm 15% of the way there. When you put it like that, it doesn't seem as bad.

I'm at work. Its 16:56. I've got loads to do, but not in the mood to do any of it. Found what looks like a miracle product. Shirataki Noodles. No carbs. Apparently. If this is the case, I reckon I'm going to eat them until infinity and beyond. God, I'm seriously salivating over the thought of noodles made from Japanese yams. You know you're beyond help if your getting damp pants over low carb noodles. Take this as a warning, people.

52 in 56

I might need a new battery in the scale...I got on this morning and it said 2lb down, so stupid me, I went back on to double check. but lo and behold I stayed the same. I'll go with the higher weight today, and hopefully see some movement.

It's no real surprise and I didn't stop eating yesterday, went over 20g of carb and a had a choc biscuit, so it's self inflicted isn't it? Serves me right.

It looks like He and I are booking a holiday to Madrid this evening, seriously cheap tickets, so we have to go. That leaves June 7th, so I should be almost there by then. Tis a good incentive.

I really hope tomorrow is 50 in 55...

52 in 57

Down 2 more today, which is surprising since I succumbed to the chocolate digestives (well just one) and didn't move at all yesterday, save between the loo and my bedroom. I was reading the last third of 'We need to talk about Kevin', and was too gripped to do much else.

Also, I haven't had anything alcoholic for the past four days (which is not like me)...oh wait, that's a lie - I had two glasses of red wine. Luckily they put nutritional information on the label - is that's a new thing? I don't know, but it laid the carbs out.

So anyhows, down nine pounds in four days. Really pleased. Feels like this crazy target could almost be achievable. I think I'll have a mini celebration when I get to 41 to go - that weight was the last weight, I was happy with, sort of. At least, I'll be able to wear my own clothes again and not His. I tell you, there's nothing worse than your boyfriend's jeans being tight around your thighs.

I was directed to the Kimkins diet yesterday, by a fellow LC-er (Thanks KateAZ!). It's sort of like Atkins, but with a low calorie emphasis, I think.
http://livinlavidalocarb.blogspot.com/2006/07/slimmer-kimmer-creating-weight-loss.html

So, anyway, today, I'm actually going to leave the house and get some exercise (with ankle weights of course), and in fact tomorrow, I start my running programme. OK, granted, its starts off really easily (walk briskly for 10 mins), but it's a start right?
http://www.weightlossresources.co.uk/exercise/running/3_mile_training_plan.htm

54 in 58

Down another two - even though I had - heaven forbid - some fruit yesterday. This morning He had left out an almost-eaten packet of Chocolate Digestives, my kryptonite. So I had one.

God, this blog is dull.

56 in 59

Down two more this morning. Gastric problems are back though.

Sample conversation

xx says:
I'm not being a suck up, but you don't have 61 pounds to lose!
xx says:
Is that link one of your mates?
I say:
yep it totally do
I say:
no its me
xx says:
Man. That is some target you've got.
xx says:
McDonalds at lunch?
I say:
Lol! probably
I say:
cheeseburger without the bun
xx says:
Atkins, ay!
I say:
yep
I say:
the best diet in the world
xx says:
It's supposed to give you 'pear drop breath'
I say:
yeah, you have to chew a lot of gum
xx says:
I'll let you know if you need to chew some extra
I say:
thanks
I say:
i'll need it

The method

This is what I'm doing - the diet is somewhere between a fat fast and induction on Atkins. I'm eating small portions of meat, salad and cheese, three times a day.
This morning I had three little sausages, two types of cheese and a quarter avocado, so I'm not starving myself.

58 in 60

Whooo. Scales this morning are saying I'm down 3lbs.
I'm pleased and motivated, so I took a different route to work this morning which involved a bit of walking. God I'm so self-righteous, I also strapped my ankle weighs on.

Something is seriously wrong with my eyes, the left one keeps watering profusely.

Preparing your mates

When your on a diet, your friends can turn into enemies quite quickly.

I told most of them about 61in61 yesterday, and they were less then impressed, to say the least. They've heard it all before and seen it all before.

This time I urge them it will be different, and I ask for their support, but its futile. Our friend is arriving from Austria, so we're planning a major piss up on Friday - I don't want to cheat, as I know I'll feast on chips. And to be honest, I'm not that fussed about the friend either. I might fuck it off.

61 in 61

I got on the scales yesterday morning, and was appalled to see that I had put 10 pounds on over Easter. 10 pounds over a like four days. It's almost like I gave birth in reverse.

I'm fucked off about it for sure, but I've been much heavier and much thinner. I'm at a weight crossroads, I suppose but I know which way I have to go.

I have to lose the weight, and quickly. Summer is rapidly approaching - I know this because my eyes haven't stopped itching and watering all week.

So why 61 in 61? Why not. Please don't think this is an pro-ana thing - it's not. It's simply a personal journey, to test my personal limits. While I am not obese (but I'm not telling you my starting weight) if I did lose 61, I will have a BMI of 21.9, so I it's a good thing, right?

My 457th 'Day 1'

I've been here before, many times.